Sometimes in life, you're going to be stuck and won't know what to do. Sometimes your motivation will run low and don't know exactly what to aim for. And there will be times when you don't feel like offering advice to people because you have your own problems to handle that if you try to help people that aren't listening, you might explode. These are all those moments, you just want to put into a big, black garbage bag and chuck down the river. But it's ok. Why do we feel the need to always be on track and on top of everything while having a certain plan. I understand that most of the time we don't so why do we worry so much? Just except what you're going through and release. It's ok to feel what you feel at this time. We don't have to worry about feeling a certain way. If we can't control the present- then let's let go of the control.
It is getting harder and harder to remember what it's like to be a kid. Summer's felt so long and the freedom we felt to explore and think without any burdens was endless. Maybe there was restrictions and rules parents put on us and of course getting to bed was an issue but don't we put worse restrictions on ourselves now. We tell ourselves we have to be a certain way, work hard, stop being too sensitive, and so on. When does it end? We boss ourselves around 24/7 and for what? To live up to certain expectations and get disappointed when we can't meet them. Well, we aren't super heroes and we don't have magical powers. Once anyone gets older and the wondrous childhood days of no responsibility diminish more and more, we all put ourselves into a certain category while piling on the pressure of life. In most cases we dig our own holes.
Summer is over and school is here again for another year. It's depressing and all there is to think about is well... thinking. Thoughts of the future keep pouring in and it is hard talking to people who know what they want to do and have a plan. That conversation goes like this: Hey Lauren, How are you doing? I'm doing great, just got a job as a teacher and oh did you know... I'm engaged!" While here I am trying to show entushiasim when in reality, I'm trying to fight off the green-eyed monster thinking to myself, why can't I have that? I'm petrified and I'm constantly being reminded all the time that there are no jobs out there so if I don't know what I want to do, where does that lead me? And I'm one of those people that want so much in their life. A person who has big dreams and hopes. I know it is never good to compare to other people, but again, we are all human and just want to be happy too. This Summer was a lovely escape but like anything, nothing lasts. But like anything we got to keep pushing on without hurting yourself. Take each day as it comes. You are who you are and we can only do so much. Even as a kid, we complained at times- now we want those days back. So enjoy each day and love who you are. No one in this entire world is like you. Embrace and share what others don't have. Lets not wait for rewards in life but rejoice when it comes. But you don't need to listen to me right now. It's ok, remember?
There is a song called Drive by Incubus with the lyrics that says "Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there with open
arms and open eyes."
About Me
- Laurb
- Hi, my name is Lauren Buttacavole. I am extremely happy you have found my writing blog since there are most likely many blogs out there also giving writing advice. But, I hope you all will find mine to be unique, interesting, and most importantly insightful to the beauty and power of writing and how it has greatly impacted my own life. I am a recent graduate of Kean University with a Major in English/Writing, minor in Psychology in pursue of a job in writing and perhaps one day write a book. I recently wrote a poetry manuscript for my Senior Seminar class entitled "Like a Bee Sting." I also like to write non-fiction stories, inspirational blogs and passages that others can relate and connect with. Thank you and enjoy my blog!
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