I am a dreamer. Dreams were I can escape reality, fly away to an island where it's warm and beautiful and the sea is crystal clear. I like to dream of getting married and living the perfect life with someone. To be in love with that person for the rest of my life and not have change take over and claim owernship. But most importantly I want to be a child forever. To posess child-like instincts and not be afraid to act silly. Is it wrong to dream?
More people in life should dream and seek the impossible. I also think it is important to welcome and embrace change. Take risks. Ask questions. And don't be afraid. Personally one of my worse fears in life is a fear of change. Once I'm happy about about something and comfortable, I feel like change starts to come into play and here I am analyzing again. It is wonderful to dream but don't dwell in this state for too long that if the outside world doesn't match what you really want, you can't possibly be happy for too long.
My Best friend and I got into a conversation about expectations and I told him about the fears I have about change. I feel that I am in safe mode right now where I am free to live in my fantasy world of wonder- where I can visualize a relationship and have it be perfect and let it fulfill all the expectations that I have in my head. But once I take that chance, will reality match my fantasy? I'm afraid that there won't be much to look foward to after being with someone for so long and I just want to savor all the special moments- cherish them because I don't know how long it will last. But right at this moment, I don't have to worry and I think that's what I like. Fear of commitment, fear of change, or perhaps there is that something else inside me that I fear. My friend told me that it's nice to go to an island but you can't live there. And you will never know anything in life unless you take a chance. Yes, there are many relationships that don't last and don't live up to any sort of expectation we all hope for but unless our hearts are open, we will always be afraid to move. There is no such thing as the perfect life. But we can certainly have a life that is pretty damn close.
I think it's about time I start embracing my own advice.
About Me
- Laurb
- Hi, my name is Lauren Buttacavole. I am extremely happy you have found my writing blog since there are most likely many blogs out there also giving writing advice. But, I hope you all will find mine to be unique, interesting, and most importantly insightful to the beauty and power of writing and how it has greatly impacted my own life. I am a recent graduate of Kean University with a Major in English/Writing, minor in Psychology in pursue of a job in writing and perhaps one day write a book. I recently wrote a poetry manuscript for my Senior Seminar class entitled "Like a Bee Sting." I also like to write non-fiction stories, inspirational blogs and passages that others can relate and connect with. Thank you and enjoy my blog!
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