pit stop of confidence

OK, so it's 10:41 at night and here I am writing my very first blog for myself. I had a few thoughts today like I do every day and I need to get them out before I go to sleep. If I don't I feel like my inspiration will be lost forever- or at least until more thoughts begin to possess my mind. Here goes. I am not the most confident person in the world. Wow, I am putting that very lightly. I am really not confident at all and to be honest, I let so many negative thoughts into my mind every day and I usually believe them.

I don't know exactly where I am going in life. The future scares me to death. I have so many fears that I don't always understand. It is truly hard to think positive but I try. I do try to talk myself out of the negativity that I feel. Does it work? Well I said I try, didn't I? But anyway, I think that I feel most confident when I'm driving. I love listening to the music and know that when I am driving I don't have to worry about anything else. All I need to do is focus on the road. In a way, I feel like I am going somewhere. I know I am usually driving the same route to school which is not really going somewhere but it is a break for me. Sometimes when I listen to the radio, I relate myself to the songs that are playing and I start to feel so much better about everything. It's a small push for me to feel motivated and positive. When I step out of the car, who knows if it will stay with me for much longer but at least it's something.

I like to stop at Dunkin Donuts (doughnuts- yea it bothers me how the spelling changed) and get a coffee in the morning to wake me up. Regular coffee makes me extremely anxious so now I need to get decaf but that's not the point I really want to make. There is this woman who I always see working in the morning there and when she sees me she lights up. It is the second time now that she complimented me on my eyes while telling me that I am so beautiful. When I leave to continue on my way to school, I can't tell you how good I feel and how just one woman who I don't know can make my day so much more pleasant. I love going there now and it is almost necessary for me.

Perhaps we all just need s small confidence booster in life from time to time and there's nothing wrong with that. Life is crazy and it's extremely difficult to keep up sometimes without the feeling of being swallowed whole or not knowing what will happen next. But it's nice to know that the small things in life can make us happy. When I'm driving to school,Dunkin Donuts is my pit stop of confidence. Do you have one?